Evolving Into Simplicity

Human consciousness is ever-evolvin. Actually everything is always evolving, and, interestingly, evolution is not toward more complexity as we might suspect but toward simplicity. That is why our souls thirst or simplicity, in their wisdom, they know that love and spirit are simple.

While taling to Debra, a recently widowed friend, I was struck by her answer to my question, "Were the last few weeks of Todd's illness very dificult for your family?" Surprisingly, she answered, "No. By then we all new that he would die, and we lived moment-to-moment. Our life was trimmed down to the simplest things - a time smile, a drink of water, flashes of feel heart connection through feeling or even a little talking. It was the simplest and the sweetest time of my life." WOW!

Debra's comments resonated with an almost wordless thirst within me. Simplicity. Sweetness. Time for reflection and relating. Umm... The upshot of that conversation is a deep commitment on my part to trim the unneccessary and the unwanted rom my lie wihtout there having to be a crises to provoke it, and to get progressively better at discerning when less is more. Sort of a continous soul garage sale.

Right now, gently, and with great compassion, take a deep breath and look at your calendar for the next week. If it is more crowded than you feel comfortable with, ponder what activities and obligations may be unnecessary or unwanted. Without judgement, ask yourself if you are an 'automatic yes'er." Do you say yes even when you feel no?

Are you thirsty for the solace of simplicity? If so, tuck in your heart and mind and promise to evolve into more simplicity. Start by eliminating just one tiny or tremendous thing that feels unnecessary or unwanted. Simplicity can be simply and soulfully wonderful....

Wasted

Let me just drink,
Another and another and another,
Until nothing else will matter,
Til everything goes away,
And in this state of void I'll stay,
This happy, blissful void,
While the world I avoid,
Just for a moment,
Just for oblivion,
Leave me alone,
I am at home,
I am fine,
I'm out of my mind,
I just don't want to be here,
Don't come anywhere near,
I like this fucking feeling,
Tomorrow is another day,
Just for today, I can waste away...
Leave me be,
Leave me be,
I'll be okay...

People get seriously drunk for two main reasons - far as I can see:
1) Just for fun
2) They've got a fucked up reality...

Some people just wanna drink for the high, get drunk, and it does no real damage to them. Some wanna go so far that they literally lose themselves, because they've got things they are running away from. Issues to deal with which is getting too much for them. Problems unsolved, the world caving in on em. Their life feels so much like the pits that they just don't see any way out of it and they want that one drunken moment to get away for a bit...

If it doesn't work. If it doesn't help them forget themselves, forget their lives, forget their worlds - they end up sober the next morning and unhappy - regretting everything that may be. The reality hasn't changed, everything stays the same, except that they've been smashed out of their minds, their bodies feel like trash, and their world is just all the more gloomier because nothing got better and nothing changed, and it's only bad to just as bad or worst...

if you NEED to get drunk like that - do it with someone you trust. Someone you KNOW FOR A FACT will NOT do social manslaughter on you, will NOT take advantage of your situation, and WILL be responsible enough to look after you when you're all smashed and can't handle yourself, least of all anyone else.

The problem is that too many people get smashed in the company of other people who ALSO wanna get smashed, and the person they trust is also trusting them to keep everything sane, and in the end they are on the newspaper for their cars getting smashed as well...

That's the reality of things... Unfortunately.

You can't solve your problems by getting drunk out of your skull... It'll only help make things worst at best or not help at all... You've just wasted then that much of money on the drinks as well as whatever food you've consumed before that. There are better ways with dealing with the darkness of life... It may be tougher, coz you got to remain sober, but at least you'd be dealing with it instead of running away from it.

Honestly, I don't trust ANYONE enough to get THAT drunk with,
I stop as soon as I start giggling.
As soon as I know that if I do more, I won't be able to watch over the other person.
I just can't let myself go that much, even if I want to.
I'd need to find other ways, or let myself go a lil wild while sober so that I know that I WON'T cross the line...
Yeah, I don't trust ANYONE that much.
Coz I know if I do, if I try, I'll get slammed by reality so hard the next day that I'd just wanna die.
I haven't been the one always responsible for other people.
But I have to be responsible to myself at least.
And getting smashed in ANY company - just won't work for me.
I can't stand the thought of losing so much control that I'd end up doing stuff that I wouldn't do if I were sober.
That's just me. A stick in the mud no fun kinda person. HAHAHAHAH
But it's safe.

But if you really ever need to get drunk.
Do it with people whom you know without a shadow of a doubt that you can trust.
You need to ensure that someone will be there to look after you.
And not be with people who would use or abuse you for it.

Just be careful.

Take care and be well all!

God bless.